January 20, 2012
The Best Laid Plans
- Anonymous Wisdom-at-Large
I had a new plan. Naturally, I implemented it on January 1. I am not above the cliche. Among other things, I was going to write, on this blog, every day of 2012.
Life has a tendency to interfere with my well-laid plans. The phone rings. A child asks for help with homework. A husband wants to talk. Someone wants a meal. Or clean clothes. And those are the predictable interruptions.
What is being interrupted? My plans. My plans.
"For surely I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for your welfare and not for harm, to give you a future with hope." - Jeremiah 29:11
My plans are not always the plans that the Lord has for me. I think my plans are for my welfare. I don't think they will bring harm to me or to others. Most of the time. I want a future and hope. But I don't really know how to plan for the future with hope.
Problem is, I like to think I know. Don't I know by now?
I all too often plan for a future not with hope but with fear. I prepare because I'm afraid. My plans are made to avoid what I'm afraid of: Risks. New things. Unpredictable things. Things I can't control.
Problem is, what I can control is very, very small. Maybe so very small that it doesn't even exist.
So when I plan, I'm forced to make my world smaller and smaller, hoping that I can find that tiny piece (Can you see it?) that I can manage by my own power, by the force of my will.
Problem is, I start thinking that maybe, if I can control that tiny piece, I can learn to control more. And more.
And then I can play god.
It never takes God long to scuttle my plans. He reminds me, interruption by interruption, who's who, God and me.